Before falling asleep the other night, I thought about everything that has happened throughout my entire life. The friends I gained, the friends I've lost, the times I broke hearts to the times I got my heart broken. I have already concluded that this condition is given to me to make me stronger and to value life but I questioned the path I'm taking, the people I'm friends with, and the choices I'm making.
I came up with a theory that everyone will meet their significant other sooner or later and you'll grow and fight together. Waiting around to find someone and lingering on past relationships will only hinder you from bettering yourself, and ultimately meeting the person that will make everything worth fighting for. Stick with the friends that will help and support you all throughout the happiness and difficulties in life and forget the ones that are only there for the good times. Always remember that there are many others dealing with worse situations than yours or mine, so make the best of life and fight for what you believe in.
But that was all just a theory..
Until I had this dream. I was climbing up a steep wall with nothing below me and only a thin wire to hold onto. I saw Johnny, Nicole, and vaguely many others on top of that wall encouraging me to keep climbing. As I was beginning to slip, someone comes up behind me, kisses me on the cheek, and tells me everything is going to be ok. I've never never met him but when I looked through his eyes, I felt relief as he pushed me up the wall.
I woke up and as bizarre as this may sound, that dream confirmed my theory.
Now I just need to go out there and live my life the way I imagined it.
check. feels great to finally cross something off our insane list of things to do.
A couple days ago, I watched "How to train your dragon" in Imax 3D with Nic, Jane, Johnny and Aaron Sun. I was a bit skeptical at first but the movie turned out to be quite amazing. Aside from Johnny telling me how much he wants a pet dragon all throughout the movie, I felt like I was in my own little world through those glasses (which we stole cause as Jane said, "I'm keeping these damn glasses. I paid $18 to watch this movie!" lol)
Afterwards, everyone besides Aaron went to Johnny's house to watch Bride Wars and I gave them Clay Facials.
sometimes, i catch myself thinking of him but i quickly force myself away. like now.
Driving home at 5am and suddenly 103.5 plays our song. It gets to me every time. When we used to sit on your porch and fast forward the tape in your Sony Walkman to this very song. The day i lost you.. was my birthday, you weren't supposed to leave. I dream of you once in a while but they've become more frequent lately. I wish you were here to tell me your story, your struggle. Dammit, why does it have to be you. In forever loving memory, Michael Huynh. I miss you.
Things happen for a reason. I believe whoever's up there is doing this to me to make me stronger and to make me appreciate life so much more than I ever have.
BTW! I'm running at the Revlon's Run/ Walk for Women Cancer next month to help the search for a cure for Women Cancers. I'm trying to raise as much money as possible for this great cause and if you can please sponsor my run, any amount will be greatly appreciated!
You can easily donate at my fundraising page: https://www.revlonrunwalk.com/la/secure/MyWebPage.cfm?pID=550073
Please join our efforts to fight women cancers! Our run is taking place on the 8th of May so come out and support all of our fellow runners! THANK YOU!
just tell me you dont love me tell me you dont feel the same way that i do tell me i dont make you smile like i do when you walk in the room you're so hard to let go
this is the part when we say were in love and the part where we say it's forever but this ain't a fantasy i know you can't come with me you got your life he better be treatin you right
this hurts so much to know that you're with someone else when you should be w me its just hard to accept that i cant be around he better be treatin you good.
i used to wake up to forever by chris brown with a smile on my face. this morning, i changed it back to the factory default.
